So...

I have realized that at this point I feel i have little control over my life or what happens in it. This scares the shit out of me. I've tried to make plans and be smart but something always comes along to shake me. Some of them are bad, some of them are good, but recently totally confusing. I understand how life works and that i kind of need to let go a bit but it is hard to do that knowing letting go could lead you down a path that is scary and undesirable.

I need to control myself and be smart because I can't control anything else. I can't get emotional. If I do I could really regret it. Of course i have never been good at taking my own advice...

I never stick with this....

... so I have no idea why I even bother. But here we go again. ;)

We move in less than two weeks...

... and I have packed a total of five boxes. That may not sound to bad but bare in mind that these are small boxes that only hold about 1/50th of the contents of our over-stuffed apartment. We will be moving to another apartment which will soon be just as over-stuffed because we were unable to get a house. I am kind of dreading another two bedroom place with four people and three cats and that we will probably have to live in for the next 3-4 years. We are gaining 280 sq ft, some outdoor space, our own washer/dryer, a bottom floor location (stairs + two kids + stroller + groceries = nothing good), and will no longer be sleeping next to train tracks. So it is a big step up. We also have another 1/2 bath but we really don't need or want it (I know, I'm crazy) and it will end up being a litter box room and storage and I am viewing it as kind of a waste of space. They had two layouts and we got the one we didn't want which means a smaller bedroom for the kids and a galley kitchen instead of the walk-through kitchen we wanted. Well here you can see for yourself (I have marked where we are putting things and gates we have to put up to keep the kids out of the kitchen and our bedroom)...


The move will be good though. For space and for our well-being. We have been in our current place for two years and it has never really felt like home. We have never put anything on the walls or decorated and it has really just been a place we live. Hopefully this new place will be home in the full sense of the word.

Now I need to get off here and continue not to pack.☺

I must have bad taste...

... or everyone else does. Why is it that every show I ever like is canceled? It happened with The 4400, Jericho (though it's now back, YAY), and now Cashmere Mafia and Journeyman. Blah.

If I met Snow White she'd call me Lazy...

I am horrible at this. I really want to be more consistent but I never am. So maybe I will be this time. Wish me luck.